My Family and Love, Simon

Hi,

I wanna talk about something kinda depressing today. So today I went to see the new movie 'Love, Simon' and I loved it. The storyline, the characters, everything. I thought it was fun and relatable but what scares me is the fact that the one thing I didn't find at all relatable was Simon's family. Now I know that those movie families are designed to be perfect, but his family still had its flaws. I found myself sat in a cinema with 3 of my best friends in the entire world, wishing that my family was like Simon's. I don't want to get emotional or act like me typing something on a computer screen is some kind of self-therapy but I'm really struggling with my family. I feel like all they ever do is yell at me, or get mad at me, or are disappointed in me and I hate it. I know that deep down they love me really but I'm finding it increasingly difficult to believe it. See me and my family are so different. They're strict and religious and have a lot of rules and I like to live in the moment and don't follow any particular religion. They like maxi skirts I like mini skirts, they like colour I like wearing black. This has impacted my life so much that instead of putting on an act at school like any other teen, I'm putting on an act at home and school has become my safe place. Coming home at the end of a day is the worst part for me and all I can think to do is go to my room and hide from it all. I can feel myself becoming more and more detached from my family and I don't want that. I try to have some downtime and they start yelling at me to "do this" or "do that" and I can't take it anymore. Any advice?

ProbablyTrash x